my new phase

my E- day

2011-01-04T13:23:00.006+08:00

I know i know ini adalah entry basi. Td godek2 lappy ingat nak buang apa yg patut tp terjumpe pulak pict2 zaman dahulu kala. So, saje jer nk letak dlm blog yg xde pape ni. i was engaged with Mr.Razif on 06-06-2009,Xsangka da lama rupanya majlis ni, tp dalam hati masih lg berbunga2 .ecehssss haha.Sori pict tidak tersusun yer..

pict ni amik kt sbelah rumah jer dan itu adalah pokok limau dan pokok serai . adeyh kesian kat aku

hehe sudah menjadi tunangan org

gaya ala ala hindustan.Abaikan perkara di belakang. Kesian

kawan2 dtg memeriahkan majlis. Ada yg dtg dr kl, trganu, perak semata2 untuk majlis kecil ni.tenkiu!!!!

sesi penyarungan cincin *wink *wink

ni taktau nk kate aper..dok perasan sorg2 biaq pi la dia ni

persiapan tunang aku sbnarnya last minit..pelamin pun pilih sminggu dr tarikh tunang. Yang paling kesian photographer , disebabkan tarikh tunang tu rmai org lain pun kahwin n tunang so photographer yg best2 sume dah fully booked. jadi diorg pass2kan job kat photographer yg so-so jer maka jadilah gambar yg 'kesian'. Jadi sesape yg nak tunang tu cpt2 la book apa yg patut.

pelamin ni dari Intan Bridal. Sis intan ni ok, hargapun boleh nego.Make up kalau xsilap rm 80 jer :) pelamin ni disponsor oleh abang long. trima kasih a.long kerana baik hanti sponsorkan sume :p nnti engagement you i sponsor pulak yer :)

hantaran utk sebelah lelaki
1) samping n songkok
2) baju melayu
3) sirih junjung and cincin
4) trifle
5) Buah
6) kek
7) lg satu dah lupe

Sori pict hantaran xder, den pun xtahu mano poginye pict2 hantaran tunang den.Hantaran pun simple2 jer bertemakan rama rama. Ingtkan tak gune fresh flower masa gubah hantaran tu jimat, rupenye takkkkkkkk, dk kire2 blk i spend almost rm 200 utk gubahan hantaran yg ala - ala jer. Bile kire2 blk rupenye gune fresh flower lg jimat. 1 dozen roses fresh flower gred b br harga rm 7.kalau nk gred A pulak 1 dozen rm 13. Jimat ke tak? cer jawab cer jawab!

Egg Flan

2010-12-11T13:58:00.002+08:00

Here is egg flan or puding telur gula hangus. Ini resepi dr kampung and rasanya sume org pandai bt puding koboi ni .. aku buat aku mkn sorang2 jek
here is the recipe :

4 sudu gula
5bj telur
1/2 tin susu pekat
1/2 cawan air

1)masak gula atas loyang smpai hangus ( light gold)- ketepikan
2)dalam belas lain pukul telur bersama susu dan 1/2 cwn air . Kemudian tuangkan
adunan td dalam loyang gula yg dimasak
3) kukus selama 20 - 30 minit ..siap!!

Carbonara Chickenball

2010-12-09T13:21:00.004+08:00

here i share the recipe of carbonara chickenball, menu ni buat smalam sbelum masuk tido ,hari ni klau timbang mesti berat da naik sekilo :( tp takpe makan dulu diet kemudian ^_^

bhn2 yg diperlukan :
chickenball ( terpulang nk byk mana pun)
2 ulas bwg putih * cincang
4bj cendawan butang * hiris nipis2
1/2 tin carbonara * i use prego tin biru
blackpaper
garam
150 ml fresh milk
cheese yg diparut

cara2nya :
1) chickenball direbus 5 minit
2) tumis bwg putih,masukkan 1/2 tin carbonara sos,then masukkan cendawan butang,
garam and secubit blackpaper n last skali masukkan fresh milk..tunggu sampai
adunan pekat n tutup api
3) pastu, susun chicken ball dlm bekas, tuang sos carbonara td and tabur cheese
yg diparut ..bakar dalam oven 20 minit lepas tu bolee makan!!!!

Help me!!

2010-12-08T14:32:00.003+08:00

hari ni dah nak masuk sbulan lepas D&C..tp i still bleeding..
hari tu darah dah stop..pastu kluar lg tp xheavy..skrangpun sama,xheavy tp darah ader sket2..nape darah xstop?spatutnye da stop..nape perut kadang2 rase sengal?

jumpe doctor? da jumpe n dah mkn ubtpun tp mcm xde solution..risaunye huhu.. ader sesape kakak ke mak sedare ke pnah jd cmni? i hope everythin is ok and xde any complication yg sbnarnye aku takut dr dulu lg..

D&C

2010-11-11T09:14:00.005+08:00

I've done with D&C, couldn't wait for a week sbb takut ada infection..
buat D&C memang sangatlah memorable sbb tak pernah lg before ni
a day before buat D&C, doctor scan lg perut.. and again rasa sgt sedih tgk die..
the amnion and baby pun, dr segi bentuknye mmg mcm tak nak keluar(masih comel and bulat), lepas tu buat appoinment with doctor untuk buat D&C.

esoknye at 9 am, ubat dimasukkan di pintu rahim( no bius)..tgn nurse seluk masuk je dalam vagina. Rasa sakit sbb bukaan ruang vagina mcm biasa, kalau org bersalin tu bukaan ruang da agak besar senanglah nak seluk. Memang sakit masukkan ubt tu..korek punye korek last skali nurse jmpe gak mulut rahim n letak ubat kat mulut rahim tu.

then, lepas tu doc pesan lepas ni akan rasa sakit perut macam nak beranak and demam sket.. within one hour mmg rasa ok je..sakit skit2 mcm senggugut tp lepas tu mmg sakit sgt, dah berpeluh2 pegang kepala katil.Then, mintak ng nurse nk cepatkan buat D&C xtahan dgn sakit perut cm memulas2.. Doc macam tak nak buat lg sbb nak rahim btul2 terbuka masa nak cuci.. tp bile die check , i've got no bleeding at all walaupun rasa sakit teruk pastu die ty ad rasa cramp di punggung tak? then i said, cramp di punggung da sminggu dah doctor.. die trus ckp kat nurse kite 'kne buat skrang sbb darah die da beku'.

dalam pukul 11 lbh, sy pun masuk operation room, bilik sgt luas dan mewah ala2 hotel..doc bg injection untuk tdo n bius whole body,nurse ajar selawat n mengucap masa badan dah kebas,penglihatan pun da blur.. at that time, sy usap perut saya for the last time n say goodbye to baby(air mata kluar,sedih ). Then,trus tak sdar org buat ape tp saya sedar dalam pukul 3pm. Still rasa sakit di bhg rahim masa tu tp ok je xsakit sgt.

doc ckp, maybe i've lost my baby sbb less taken of vitamin and suppliment. i only take caltrate and acid folic. Doc ckp due to my condition, i should take 5 jenis supplement to support the baby.At least, i know punca keguguran n lepas ni kne berjaga2.

D&C or cuci rahim ni bkn shj dibuat utk org keguguran je sbnarnye, org yg ssh hamil, ada fabroid kecil and nk kesan kanser rahim pun kne buat D&C.
sy buat D&C di Perdana Specialist Maternity Cente n it costs RM 700. And range harga untuk buat D&C is 500 - 1500

miscarriage

2010-11-07T08:18:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time i didn't touch this blog, but this morning tetibe rs nk memblog kan diri.. at the first time mase docide nk ade blog dulu,sbb nk letak any info or nk catat any event bsejarah for my reminder..but as time goes by.. xde disiplin nk bukak blog sndiri huhu. Today, i've something to put in this blog.

I'm reaching my 3 month pregnancy ,mmg hari2 kire umur baby and bc article about pmbesesaran die. i was very exited.But, yesterday bile scan baby inside my tummy, he is gone. At the first moment i saw the scanner, i could see the kantung (amnion) and the baby lying down in its kantung, but with no dengupan jantung :( .
And today, i'm still carrying my baby yg tiada dengupan jantung . He is too loyal to me, he didnt out yet and didnt give me any isyarat yg mengatakan die dah 'takde' i my tummy. the doc gives me one week left to let him out, kalau tak kne buat D&C.

i thought i was strong enough,but i failed. It was a terrible sad kandung anak yg sudah 'tiada' because i still can feel him in me.
saya redho dan terima ini dgn hati terbuka. Somehow, i feel blessed sbb Allah had given me peluang rasa mengandung yg sangat harmoni with no morning sickness. Until now, i didnt feel any stomach ache and darah pun hy keluar setitik :0 still rasa mcm pregnant:(

Thank god, sy dpt kawan yg sentiasa membantu dan suami yg sgt supportive. Walaupun kami muda but i think he is mature enough utk pikul tanggungjwb sbg suami dan ayah.Thanks.

p/s to my baby: Thanks for being with me until now, i feel blessed and proud carrying you everyday. InsyaAllah we will meet you di 'sana'. Do wait for us. God knows better, and i will never forget the feeling having u inside me. It was suatu RAHMAT.

perfect moment in life~

2010-08-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

There are 2 perfect moments in life I don’t wanna trade with anything else in this world – the moment I was born , and the moment I was married.

A guy I end up with is the same guy I knew 7 years ago. The one who used to be a simple buddy has now been the most special person I ever dreamt to be with. The one who used to treat me as an ordinary girl now treats me like nothing else but a princess :)

It has been 3 months since the date we were tied together. Im now looking forward for the date to meet again next year and years ahead, hoping that there are days between that I feel beautiful and days I feel delighted..

Im gonna let him know that the journey I’ve been with him is never a regret.. trust me =)

wishing and hoping

2010-08-06T18:28:00.003+08:00

today, i'm in a good mood in making some wishlist
maybe i'm crazy enough waiting for the arrival of my King
actually, my 'days counting' will stop within 3 days and i hope
upon his arrival no more mood swing and tears of rindu merindu..heeee
- i wish that i have someone to be sleep with
- i wish i have you to have some pillowtalk
- i wish i have you sleeping next to me when i awake
- i wish that i'll get some new blouse and shirt
- i wish that i may have some night dates where i can dress up myself
- i wish that i can hafal some al- Quran verse since there are my coursework for this sem
- i wish i can make some buns for you during evening
- i wish i can successfully cook some new recipes and let you finish them all
- i wish you can finish your research early so that kite boleh balik kampung regularly
- oh my dear God, do bring him home safely because there is his wife keep praying for him here
p/s : i hope all these wishes can be fulfilled by next week except for the research..is that ok dear?

cetusan hati

2010-07-13T17:33:00.004+08:00

dear to my hubby..

how are u over there? huhu

tak dapat connect internet kah? or bz wit the class?

i'm waiting for you for the whole day..

hoping that i'll get any msg or buzz from you.. at least one :(

but there's no one ..

harap2 abg ok saja di tmpat org..

T_T

Dulu before kawin, i never have this kind of feeling..

tak pnah rindu as crazy as now..

maybe rasa sayang, rindu or cinta tu bertambah tambah lepas kawen..

ditinggalkan sebulan .. mmg mencabar..

ni br masuk hari ke 2.. bunyi mcm gedik tapi sy btol2 rasa cam nak g jepun je..

love is blind :p

i know that i still couldn't be a good wife for him..

for some reason, i do really fail to be the one that he wants..(i'm guessing)

but,i'll try.. be a good one or be the best one..

tapi ..bolekah sy doakan course die cancel?n die pulang dengan segera

amin...

petang yg hening..

2010-07-10T16:01:00.001+08:00

yesterday, i went to uia..pegi settlekan byk benda yg xsettle lg..
then i went back to johor.
xmungkin sy tinggalkan suami keseorangan :)
gediks..
petang ni, seperti biasa hujan,redup dan sejuk
selaku isteri yg rajin
sy sediakan teh susu dan juga muffin coklat
layanzzz

first post :)

2010-07-08T17:57:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum..
since this is the first post, still blurred tak tahu nak taip ape..
someone had inspired me to start blogging :)
he made this blog for me..
maybe nak suruh cerita pasal die (*wink)
sorry hubby.. btw, i wud like to say thanks to my hubby sbb sediakan blog ni :)
nanti i tulis byk2 pasal u k? hik hik
after 3 months of resting, esok sy balik ke uia..
sedih tak terkira.. masih dalam persediaan mental utk dtinggalkan suami utk sbulan
okeh sbulan = 30 hari
30 hari? aduss lamanya... nak pengsan
xde mood .. bye